Infidel Interview #122: Convulsia Darklove


First off, just want to thank you for participating in this edition of Infidel Interviews. Could you start off by giving a little information about you to the audience? Whatever you feel comfortable with, but name, age, and where you live would be pretty standard?

I can describe myself as non-binary composer, songwriter, lyricist, singer, guitarist and writer. Exactly in that order. Calling myself „non-binary” is pretty important for me, because if someone expects any of the typical masculine or feminine features from me, well, it'd be better if he/she go somewhere else. That’s in short.

How do you enjoy where you live? Is there a vibrant music community where you are? Would you say you find that your local scene influences your attitude and/or creativity?

Yes and no. For all these three questions. Kraków is not so big but also not so small city with everything you need to live, you don’t even need to speak polish to find a job quickly and easy. You can go almost everywhere here by foot and not get tired at all, but in the winter it’s better to not go out because it has some of the most polluted air in Europe. The music scene is a bit overdosed with few dozen good gigs that are worth checking out every week. I heard that at least a few people from Germany find Kraków similar to Berlin in the case of the music scene. Local scene influenced me a lot in the past, in my life I met lot of people who are touring around the world right now and are supporting big names bands, I met great musicians too, especially the jazz scene here is quite cool and inspiring. But now I’m mostly facing raising intolerance here and aggression, which sadly is slowly infecting also the music scene. Kraków was always fucked up right-wing and conservative, but now it’s sometimes unbearable with amount of people with stereotypical thinking.

What do you see in the near, and far, future for your creative output?

At the moment I'm focused on recording two new songs and I want to go further with arrangement and recording process than in the past. Since the last 2 previous years I’m constantly thinking of improving my composing, arranging, lyric writing and singing skills. I know I could never have the expensive and professional equipment, but that does not relieve me of my duty (a duty that I imposed on myself) of communicating my ideas as precisely as possible. And overcoming my own limitations.

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What would you say are your biggest influences when it comes to art and music? Are there any bands that you would say struck you with the chord that inspired you to peruse your current path of musical aspirations?

I can easily list the artists that were influenced me the most: Micheal Jackson - since I got the album „Bad” on cassette when I was 4, Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, Fryderyk Chopin, Witold Lutosławski, Iron Maiden but also Dickinson’s solo albums, Andrew Lloyd Webber and Tim Rice (you probably know why), Madonna, The Prodigy, Nirvana, polish metal band Kat (but not that crappy metal The Great Kat) and lot of less known artist like Lxnnnie, Agura Matra, von Zachinsky, Vittuma, Kackala, Me And My Two Horses or like Silke Berlinn - she is also a very interesting person with an unique history. About other arts: painter Roberto Matta, writers like Umberto Eco, Julio Cortazar, Stanisław Lem but of course many, many others. Ludwig Wittgenstein, Bertrand Russel, Friedrich Nietzsche.... and many, many others!!!!

What are your thoughts on genres in general? Do you find them creatively helpful as a template to work with? Or do you find them restricting? Or possibly somewhere in between? Now that the internet has caused so much crossover in music, would you even say genre labels are relevant any more?

It could be a little surprising, but I think most people are playing exactly the same chord progression but just on instruments that have different sounds and could tag exactly the same song as rock’n’roll in one time when played on an electric guitar or as electro-industrial second time when played on other musical equipment. When it’s still exactly the same song with the same notes. I think that 90% of music around us is a pop music. Just look at great pop album „The Satanist” by Behemoth, most of songs on it have pop song structure, just because Nergal can’t sing and he has to growl doesn’t make it that much different than other pop music. Nergal is a good pop songwriter. Try to play „Messe Noire” on piano and you’ll hear what it is. Both mainstream music industry and independent music scene is defined by 80’s pop music song structure. But the root of pop music is obviously Mozart’s works. Let some symphonic orchestra play „Rhythm Is a Dancer” for example and what it will be? One of the artists that I discovered not so long ago ,and is not a pop musician, is Pamela Z. Yes there are some exceptions, but not so much. And I love good pop music.

So much has been said, and it sometimes feel that every word combination has every been taken. As a lyricist myself I know the pain of how hard it can be to articulate something in a way that is both engaging to the audience and uniquely artist. How do you find inspiration for your lyrical poetry?

Last week I wrote whole song with lyrics in less than 1,5 hours. I’m composing and writing when I need to say something and it’s quite easy then. The other thing is arranging the song. Also writing rhymed lyrics is the most natural for me, I can easily write a rhymed story, but to write a prose is a real challenge in comparison to writing rhymes in my case. Near 95% of my lyrics are about things I experienced or things I want to express. Some lines are in my head for many years, linked to people, situations etc. Then in one moment some external factor pulls the trigger and that’s it, the song is ready... So when you look at my lyrics you can learn a lot about me. I wrote few lyrics dedicated to my wife as the person who influenced me the most in my whole life and because of things we went through together.

When it comes to composing music, do you approach things with a clear vision in mind, or do you prefer to let songs feel themselves out? Do you have any particular techniques or tricks you use to keep yourself creative and consistent?